Wow.

An actual post on my life, instead of random musings, bits and pieces of MSN conversations and SONGS.

The next book I'm going to read (recommended by my awesome friend Noni) is Kiterunner by Khaled Hosseini.

God. I feel so much better now that I have something to read.
Now I need something new to listen to. Suggestions?

Seriously there is nothing to do. First and foremost, I need a job. I don't even have school anymore, and while I'm happy I graduated, I miss it terribly. It was my little sister's first day of high school today. I remember those Grade 9 jitters!

I'm just going to have to wait until my alternative school calls. Can you believe I WANT homework? I want to stay up until 2 am not doing anything, then writing a four-page essay in three hours, then feeling smug when I get a 90% on it. HAH!

Today I talked to some old friends, and looking at their Facebook pictures made me feel really lonely. I hate that I'm living so far away from you guys, but I'll be back soon =)

Maybe it's because I spent so much time with HIM (urgh) that I neglected you guys, and for that I'm truly sorry. But since I am not a repeat offender (so-to-speak), hopefully you will forgive me. (?)

Also, when I move I'll be further away from him, and maybe happier? We'll see.

For now I'm taking Noni's advice (yes, including the cliche) and I will WAIT. As for the questions Noni asked me, I'm going to give myself a more in-depth analysis based on them, so that I can truly differentiate between the two.

Oh and build myself up. I have some things I want to do:

1. Go back to music school.
2. Get a job.
   
3. Save, save, SAVE! Open an RRSP and all that jazz.
4. Read some books.
5. Learn a new language. (Really.)

Because in doing these things, I will accomplish two more important things:

1. I will occupy my time, thus making less time available for me to think about him.
2. Doing these things (and doing them well) will make me feel better about myself (flattery doesn't work - only annoys me).